Kea Agula​r was said to have kille​d her self but her death​ is still​ under​ inves​tigat​ion.​ She lived​ down the stree​t from me and was a good frien​d.​ She have been the nices​t all the time but she would​ alway​s be there​ when you neede​d her.





In memor​y of Kea. She will not be forgo​tten.​

I am happy. I really am I dont think i have ever really been happy. This is a new feeling and i really love it. I cant stop smiling.I am going to stay this way.

!!DUDE!!
Marcus, Andrew, Landon, and Ramin you all need to call my cellfone because i need something to do this summer and all my real friends are either at cheer camp or in california. Come kidnap me also because i am grounded.

Wow well i need someone to kill me i need it cheap and on a monday before 3:00 hopefully between 1:00 and 2:50

thank you come again
JK

I gave up
A downhill spiral
plumiting towards the ground
Sprials
I see the end now
The drakness encloseing
you feel as if the air is being sucked out of you
as if your crying histariclly and cant stop
gasping for air
all there is there is emptiness.
The cold sends chills through your body resting on your arms as you go to
hold yourself
warm yourself
your unable to move the chills the slowly over come you until your bodyy and mind finally submit.
The sences go blank
then it is over you stand there only a little less of your soul and heart missing
As your mentalliy changes it also deteriorates
that way you can be dying without a change in appearance, when nothing changes on the out side
people are reluctant to listen to you say that you are sad.
Little by little you get lost until finally you are an empty shell
i am now an empty shell
people will try to help you now but it will not happen.
They waited to long and now it is over.
Your heart is after your soul that way
you cant fight back it as if your being raped,
your already done with dead and cold all that is left is the unthinkable.
The end is here and all that is left to do is to dig our graves.
There is no hope
We are lost and alone
Embrace the end it wont nearly hurt as much that way.

I am not deep
I don’t get it
Life
Up then down
More down then up
Now
I miss you
I am not brilliant
Nor profound
I just need
You
I trusted
Now I am lost
Hurt
I need you
You left me
I stand here
Alone
You told me to wait
I waited
You came back
You lied
I am more hurt
I screamed
I am sorry
I did not mean to
Its just you
Never came
Not to my rescue
Now it is too late
I am falling way to deep
I am not me
I need you
You told me not to
Not to need you
Not to fall
I cant
I have no one
The ones I have cant see
I can’t tell
I trusted you
You be trade me
So now I cant
I have a wall that will not fall
I am not deep
I just don’t understand
People say one
Then you tell them
Then the like at you
Kind of weird like
They change
They lie
Say they understand
Tell me not to
Not to what
I don’t get it
I fell really hard
I can’t get up
I see you walking
Away

Goodbye
I miss you
I am alone
Don’t be sad
I miss you